Regrets

One thing that I will always regret for the rest of my life is breaking up with my then boyfriend of more than 3 years via a Dear John letter.

I am so ashamed that I did this.

It sounded like a good idea at that time – less drama, ripping the band-aid off and closing a chapter in my life. Plus I was peer pressured into doing it.

But he deserved better. Even if he cheated on me first by hooking up with a girl while we were together. Two wrongs don’t make a right. For his family though, never mind that he was the one who wronged me first, I will forever be that bitch who broke their pretty boy’s heart.

It has been so long now, ancient history, really. But there are some moments in your life that sticks to your memory forever, something that will leave a bad taste in your mouth.

This was one of them.

 

Published in: on July 26, 2014 at 2:03 am  Comments (2)  
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Bad Day

I had one of the worst days at work today. And it sucked! Big time! 

It’s how it took one bad day for me to go back to blogging again, but for that I am grateful. It has been a while and I miss it. So instead of making a big comeback and writing a hearts and peaches blog entry, I am just writing as it is. Because life is not perfect. 

 

It it does not help that it is still snowing in my part of the world. Even though the calendar says it is officially Spring. It has officially been Spring 6 days ago. 

Maybe Punxsutawney Phil can retire now. 

 

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Published in: on March 26, 2014 at 9:13 pm  Comments (2)  
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Back

I cannot believe how long it has been since I blogged. Not that I don’t want to but because I just didn’t know where to start, so many things have happened in the past few years —

I am still working, but only part time now. Husband and I realized how hard it is to raise teenagers. Especially in this day and age where instilling good values and morals can be quite a challenge. Homework is a constant battle and sleeping late has been a consistent thing. I cringe every time I get an email thinking it’s going to be from a teacher. And bullying has been a problem for my younger son.

And so between being called to their school for teacher conferences and making sure they’re on top of their schoolwork and getting the house in order, working part time is the best way to go.

And yet, I still do not have time.

There are so many things I want to do. And right now I am in a difficult place. It’s the same feeling right there after college where you don’t know what to do and where to go. It is more frightening than exciting for me right now though.

So I turn back to blogging.

 

Published in: on September 20, 2011 at 12:15 pm  Comments (2)  

Missing In Action

It has been a very long time since I have blogged. And I miss it. I do. I think about it every single day. I miss my blogger friends. I miss reading about other people’s stories and catching up on some I have been following for the past few years. 

But

Life has been moving too quickly for me. Too quick before I can even write a single sentence. And it doesn’t help that I have no iPhone to write on and a computer nearby to jot down my thoughts on. 

And so I wait.

For the day that I will be able to finally sit down and write.

Published in: on June 11, 2009 at 6:51 pm  Comments (7)  

Working Again

Starting a new job is really hard. Starting something new is intimidating, daunting, scary. And I felt all of those as I once again joined the workforce. Suddenly, I am the new girl. Except that I am older, in fact, one of the older
employees in a young, dynamic workplace. And I am the only one with kids. And so goes the challenge – trying to fit in in an unfamiliar territory. Where do I sit, is there some kind of unspoken rule as to who sits where? Will I be
stepping on other people’s toes if I do something? It’s hard.

They come to work in designer duds and Starbucks in hand. And I had to switch my wardrobe from stay-at-home-Mom comfy clothing to professional working woman attire. I am trying to blend in, fit in.

I feel like the new kid in school. Except that I am a grown woman and I am expected to know better. Which makes it doubly hard. Not to mention the traffic – driving to and from work, I was stuck in a traffic jam last week. For the first time in a long time, I felt so stressed out as I sat and fidgeted in my seat. I sat in there for a long time, I must’ve
memorized the whole Taylor Swift CD I had playing on.

The Tweens and TheFisherman had to get used to me not being around all the time. TheFisherman lamented that he cannot call me anytime he wants anymore. The Tweens had to call me with homework help and I had to tell them what to do over the phone on my lunch break. It tugged at my heartstrings, I have to admit. But I also had to toughen it up because we all talked about this and we decided that we all need for me to do this. And so we swallow it all down, this new set-up.

We’ll all get used to this, I know. It’s always the transition phase that’s challenging.  For now I am thankful that I have a job in these tough times. And that I found an almost perfect job and decided to go ahead and start all over again.

Wish me luck.

Published in: on January 31, 2009 at 5:20 pm  Comments (23)  
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New Year

I welcomed 2009 with a bottle of rum and Celine Dion’s “My Heart Will Go On”. Nope, I wasn’t channeling my inner Jack Sparrow (though I highly doubted Celine Dion will be his artist of choice), I was just going along for the ride. A friend wanted to drink after more than a year of no liquor (she was pregnant) and she wanted me to join her have a drink. How can I deny her of something she has been thirsting for a long time? A dried up well parched with nary a drop of liquid? Needless to say, I willingly joined her and we had a good time.

As for Celine Dion? We  had a game and I was forced to sing, the audience was forced to listen and I was forced to pose for the camera.

I feel differently about the song now.

Happy New Year!!!

Published in: on January 4, 2009 at 8:56 pm  Comments (4)  

Grey No More

Just as I finished writing down my Fall post, Winter is slowly creeping up. The temperature dropped down like you wouldn’t believe. And the beauty of Fall was quick and fleeting. But another season is coming in and the old must make way for the new. Such is life.

The last few episodes of Grey’s Anatomy was very disappointing. I am so disappointed that I am seriously considering taking my GA license plate holder off my vehicle. I am that serious. Like a badge to be worn, or a ribbon to signify my support, my license plate holder represents just that. And I am slowly losing my faith. I have been very disgusted with the turn of events so far. I am however, giving it 2 more episodes. Let’s wait and see….

I am back to work. And I have been trying to find that balance again- between motherhood and career. The economy has been really really down and unfortunately we cannot afford for me to just stay home. I have to go out there and make some moolah. And I have been very very fortunate to have found a job that was near perfect. I am crossing my fingers this works.

I am not depressed anymore. Because of the job and the house and the juggling of all the chores, it has kept me off my toes and I have no time to dwell on negative things. And I’m glad.

Published in: on December 31, 2008 at 12:10 pm  Comments (13)  

Thanksgiving and Things To Be Thankful For

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Thanksgiving is a day when we look forward to a lot of things – vacation time, being with family and close friends, and pigging out on turkey , pumpkin pie and all the yummy stuff Thanksgiving is made of.

It is also the time when traffic is horrible, long lines at the grocery store, a lot of cooking and a lot of leftovers.

Time was when we didn’t prepare much for Thanksgiving. As long as we have either turkey or ham or both, sweet potato pie, cranberries and stuffing. we’re all good! But as time went by, Thanksgiving has “evolved” in my family. We serve both turkey and ham, TheFisherman prepares turkey like preparing for a tournament – he soaks it in brine for about 2 days, painstakingly mix a concoction of some sorts (herbs, spices and lots and lots of butter), then he bakes it for about 3-4 hours depending on the turkey’s weight. I, on the other hand, prepare the cranberries, the pies, the stuffing and everything else. Which, I am realizing just now is not fair! He prepares one thing while I take care of the rest. He does help out with a lot of things so I don’t mind.

Guests have been a toss between family, friends, and friends of friends. It has so far, been a lot of fun, a lot of work, and let me say it one more time – a lot of leftovers. No matter how much food I let our guests take home, we always end up having piles of containerful of food piled high in the fridge.

Did I say I overeat during these times too? Yup. Me feel real bad!

Amidst all the food, the company, and the sleepy feeling you get from the turkey, I would like to list some of the things/people I am thankful for:

1. My family – we have our ups and downs, our good and bad but we are and will always be together. We do almost everything together and even though the Tweens are at times retreating to their own little corner once in a while, they still want to do things with us. They call us when they need help, ask permission if they can eat candies or ice cream, shares with us things that happened in school, etc. I hope this will continue on until we are old and gray.

2.  Our home – in this turbulent time of economic downfall, we still have a roof over our heads. It has given us few problems – repair wise. The pipes haven’t burst, the basement haven’t been flooded, and a tree hasn’t fallen over our roof.

3. Our health – apart from my boys’ asthma, TheFisherman’s arthritis and my occassional migraines, we are in tip-top shape.

4. My job – yes, a job. I have been working for about 3 weeks now. And I am very thankful and feel that I am truly blessed to be able to snag a job in this tough time. (more about my job in another post)

5. My friends – I have been blessed with lifelong friends, new friends, and old friends. I am very lucky to be able to sustain friendships with people who I have known since childhood, friends I met a few years ago, and friends I just met. They touch my life in many ways and I am hoping I have touched their lives as well.

I have a lot to be thankful for and so even though I am not the type who does these things, I am doing it now. Not because I might forget but because I want to always remember.

Published in: on December 19, 2008 at 7:57 pm  Comments (8)  
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