I start the new year with feelings of guilt and regret – not a good way to start, I know. But I cannot help but feel this way because of things I didn’t do and should’ve done. Because of wrong decisions and errors in judgment. And I have no one to blame but myself.

I honestly thought that I have stepped out of the shadows. That I have finally found my voice. That I have been freed of the chains that held me for years. But as it turns out, I have not. I am still here – imprisoned and guilty and inferior.

The temporary freedom, the brief moment of euphoria has elapsed.

And I am still here.

Back in the prison,still in the shadows,

still small.

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