Fall

With the way I’ve been going on in my life, you would’ve thought I’m a part of the recent election’s campaign crew. I’ve been running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. I was finally able to catch my breath and opened my eyes to see the beauty of Fall. The colorful season my whole family loves. There are no pollen that turns out into pink eyed, sneezing monsters. There are no rain to dampen our spirits. And there is no black snow to make the landscape ugly like an abysmal blob of gray. Instead there are yellows and reds and oranges and greens. Leaves dancing in the wind and the picturesque landscape takes my breath away.

Stop and smell the flowers? I’m stopping to look at the leaves.

 

 

 

Back to School Routine

And so goes a month of school and I slowly fell in a routine. At least I tried to. I’ve been back to the gym for 2 months now and I can finally appreciate the results. Thanks to my gym membership, I lost a dress size and would have probably lost more had TheFisherman and the Tweens decided not to try all the buffet places. But I somehow managed to stick to my 3 plate limit. Piled about 2 feet high. LOL, kidding!

Tween1 is now in middle school and I feel bad for him, waking up at 5 in the morning. I am just so glad that he fixes his own breakfast now and doesn’t wake his Dad up until it’s time for him to be driven to the bus stop. Yep, his Dad. Wise kid knows not to wake me up before 7am unless it’s an after Thanksgiving sale or a big yard sale. TheFisherman gets back to sleep and I wake up at 7:15 to rouse Tween2 from dreamland and prepare his breakfast. I drive him to school and my day officially starts. Which is around 8 am. I prepare TheFisherman’s lunch and when he leaves I do errands and housework. 

And so goes my daily ritual. 

Let me just say how happy I am to be back to exercising. The release of endorphins from the work-out is worth the monthly membership fee. And the fact that I fit into my clothes better makes me do happy dances. I was so happy, I even bought skinny jeans to celebrate! Never mind that I am not my ideal size and weight yet, I am celebrating today!

The Tweens are finally out of my hair during the day. My MIL is in FL for now and I am enjoying the peace and quiet. I even told my sister I can walk around the house naked now. To which she replied: “you wouldn’t dare!”. I said I wouldn’t but just the thought that I can do it if I want to is very liberating! Kind of reminds me of that “Friends” episode when Rachel did just that. 

I haven’t been baking much. Nor cooking for that matter. TheFisherman takes up the slack and does it himself. That or frozen pizza and take-out. But now that it’s getting colder, I will definitely get back to cooking and baking. And the smell of home will be back again in this household.

Forward

The outpouring of support has left me speechless. I am touched beyond words. Just when I thought life could not get any better, it did. I am still a little bit dazed and confused but the thought of knowing that there are people who care makes such a huge difference. Some of my closest friends have been very supportive and I  feel blessed to have them in my life.

I look forward to brighter days and know that things will be better. I am hoping this will be my last “dark cloud post”. And looking forward to reading my blogger friends’ blogs once again. One I really missed during my hiatus.

I look forward to Fall – my most favorite season of all. When the leaves turn a different hue and the picturesque surroundings leaving me speechless and in awe of nature’s creations.

I look forward to this schoolyear. Where the Tweens will once again leave me in peace, if only for the 6 hours that they’re in school. I will get to spend some alone time. Finally.

I look forward to possibilities. Endless possibilities of what I can be and what I can do. And try to be the best that I can be.  

I’m moving forward now.

Alone

So the semi-hiatus turned out to be a full-fledged one. And my life has taken on some soap operaic turns. The twist and turns enough to send my head in a tailspin. And the emotional roller coaster still left me reeling from it all.
But I am back. Even though I am still a little down and dizzy from it all. What better way to try and survive but to write about it – vent out to my heart’s desire?
Plus I miss my blogger friends. My virtual buddies whose lives I know more about than some of my friends. Whose feelings I can read and relate to once in a while. Whose experiences mimics mine at times. Whose lives are way more exciting, boring, fascinating, shocking than mine. Way more peaceful, contemplative, you name it, they have it. Well, we all do. We all have our own crosses to bear. Our own dramas we have to live through. Our own sitcoms and reality shows. It just seems that at times our lives pale in comparison to others. And we take comfort in knowing that we are not alone. That there is someone out there whose angst-driven life are more dramatic than ours.
Pardon my rant. What a way to get back to blogging. But this is my reality. We all have our good days and bad. This is one of the bad. It just so happens I wanted to share it to my BFs (Blogger Friends).

Because I don’t want to be alone.